Sisters. and Elders as Brothers.

I have never before had the opportunity to have a sister. That is excluding dogs which are quite good as far as sisters go but have relatively little to say in the way of actual words. At the MTC though, I gained many, many beautiful women who I now consider to be my sisters and some of my best friends. It is funny the way and quickness with which girls you meet at the MTC become your sisters. First, they merely have the title of sister written on their name tag but later, and not much later may I add, they begin to actually be your sisters. People you have never even met before quickly, within days and sometimes minutes really, become some of your favorite people in the world, and it is wonderful.

I quite like these girls. Each and every sister I besistered (it is like befriended but with sisters) while at the MTC has made a beautiful and permanent change in who I am, who I want to be, and how I perceive myself. They each face challenges, varied in nature but none of them less important or difficult than another, with a strength and courage that literally floors me. And somehow, these amazing women seem to see some sort of strength in me. As I receive letters from them weekly and somehow accidentally see them at the temple I am repeatedly edified by their spiritual strength and general ability to make me smile no matter what. They often even make me laugh which I suppose seems no giant feat as I am more often found laughing than doing anything else, but I promise, I have quite a refined palate as far as humor goes. These girls are amazing, through and through. I am quite lucky to know them.

Now, for the elders... I have had the experience of brothers in my life, and mine are quite as amazing as they come so the elders I encountered had a huge expectation to live up to. And they quite did. The elders in my zone were kind, considerate, and always awesome. I felt like they were always there as a positive force in my life, and I love that. They will do amazing things as missionaries, I am sure of it. I consider myself very lucky to have gained the relationship that I have with the elders I have met, my dear brothers from other mothers, they are as topnotchity as they come.

I hope to always remain friends with everyone that I encounter on my mission, and I am pretty good at friend keeping so I expect it to happen. Much love all.

Clarity

In recent days, perhaps even months, my life has been a bit of a confusing mess. I have been happy, but I have also been floundering a bit. Then yesterday I realized something: I will get what I want, and it will be wonderful.
I also realized something else, it's not going to happen overnight. Anything worth having, is worth waiting for. I am soon to go on a mission, to Korea and it will be fantastic, no doubt.
Someday I will be married and begin creating a beautiful family. The thing I want probably more than anything else. And when that day comes, the man who I marry will be just as excited and ready as I am. And it will be hard. And it will be crazy. And it will be beautiful.
I am ready now to just see how things go. To work hard and explore myself until I find me, one hundred percent. And now, I continue my exploration.

Corinne to Korea

I'm going to Korea!!!! I got my call on my very own birthday and I am so excited! I will be going to the MTC on the 7th of September!!!! I will be in the MTC for 3 months and then I will begin my service in the Korea Seoul mission, I'm feeling pretty terrific! In preperation for my mission I am in need of some things and ifany of my lovely readers would like to help me out, I thought I would include a list, here goes:
-skirts that cover the knee (size 12)
- nice shirts
- a rain coat
- gloves
- scarves
- winter hat
- cardigans
- an umbrella
- 4 twin size sheets
- a towel, hand towel, and wash cloth
- small first aid kit

that is pretty much everything I need. Thank you everyone and I am
so excited!

Friendship...

Is really important to me. I think a friend is something that can never ever be replaced and so, I do everything I can to maintain the friendships I have. Sometimes it is really hard, sometimes it even hurts, but I don't care. It matters to me.

Heart of Gold

I want to live, I want to give, keep me searching for a heart of gold. Oh Neil Young, you have my love. Listening to your music reminds me of living in the "White house," Well at least the house we lived in that was white... that one time. Anyway, it carries a memory and currently makes me feel something. It carries kind of a loneliness with it but certainly not a hopelessness.
Sometimes I feel like a girl apart. Perhaps this is why I like buffy so much. I have friends and family and plenty of people who love me and who I love in return. But I just feel so different. Its like I see the world in a way that no one else imagines, and good fore me, right? For the most part yes. I like my view of the world and I can't explain it. But as I sit and wait, I feel apart.
(this is not a depressing post, merely a thoughtful one)

Completion of the papers

So my papers are in! At least to the bishop, it's pretty exciting! So it could be really soon that I get
my call, so feel free to cast your votes!

Another Day

Today was Sunday.
I arrived at church this morning and far from being ready to learn, I was already ready to go home. I was thinking of leaving after sacrament meeting because that is of course the most important part. But I decided to first say a prayer, I told myself and God that I was preparing for a mission, leaving church early is not exactly a mission prep thing to do, so in my prayer I asked that I would want to be in church today. By the time the first meeting was over, I was ready to stay through sunday school and then come home, and after sunday school I decided to stay for the whole block. And I am glad that I did.
I have been praying all the time recently, about pretty much everything and perhaps even too much. The other day in fact I was watching an episode of Buffy, yes, the Vampire Slayer, in a particular intense moment I found myself praying that it would all work out. Embarrassing, I know. It did not in fact work out as I wanted to but as the episode was prefilmed, I was not offended. I also pray about a lot of small things and big things that have been happening recently in my life. I have not always received an immediate solution to my problem but I have been able to maintain a feeling of peace and hope that has allowed me to remain happy even as I have struggled.
My mission papers are almost ready to be submitted, I only have the dental appointment left and it is scheduled for the 26th of may, then the waiting really begins. Sometimes I find myself scared, afraid that I wont be able to keep the schedule of a missionary or be able to break out of my shell enough to actually change the life of another human being for the better, but, in my heart, I know it can and will happen.
As of yet I do not know what exactly I will need physically for my mission, although I am fairly certain skirts will be involved. So if any of you lovely readers have anything cute to offer, I'm game.
I love you and will check in again soon.

Girl on a Mission

I am excited to announce that I have begun my mission papers. As a female member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints approaching the prime age of 21, I have come to the conclusion that it is about time for me to go somewhere and do something. Specifically, a mission. I have been feeling for awhile now that I have access to a beautiful truth and it is about time for me to share it. I have started my papers, set the appointment for my physical, and thought about my dental appointment, hopefully i will get in to that soon. It is crazy how quickly things are going now that I have been able to start, although it has felt like such a long time since I decided I wanted to go. My dear friends, I will require much aid in many different fashions in order to meet my goal and I would so much appreciate your help. Whether you can contribute financially or perhaps to the supplies I will need when I finally receive my call and prepare more thoroughly to leave, any help will be important and useful. Perhaps this plug is a bit shameless, but I am a girl on a mission. When I have more information on clothes and things that I will need I will post again. But until then, let me know if you would like to help in any way. I will appreciate it greatly. Thank you all.

Changes

Life is funny. Sometimes, i think i know exactly where I am headed, but i never do. It seems kind of horrible actually, but in the end I always seem to end up happy.

Friends, and hope

I have been learning recently about friends. The different kinds I have and the things they mean to me. Some friends are family, some have become family, some are animals, and some are even inanimate. The one thing that real friends have in common is that they never desert you. Things change, relationships shift, but your friends remain. My friends are my dogs, and recently my guinea pigs. My dear dear piper, who is now gone, I miss her so. My sanora who sits by me whenever I am over and cries for only me to throw her ball. Even drake, his bell and always opened mouth has charm. Then there is my family my mom, dad, and brothers, all of whom I love very much. My grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and others on whom I can always rely. There are the movies and books I watch and read for comfort. Although they do not think or feel, I always know that when I am having a bad day you've got mall, or a hardy boys book, will be waiting for me. Then there are the people I have met who have enriched my life and caused my heart to fill with love. All of these changed my life for the better one way or another. I will not lose a single one of them if I can help it. Things change, things hurt, but for love, it is worth it.
Hope is another important thing. It is wonderful to have hope, but it some ways, hope is painful. Hope causes you to hold onto things others may let go of. In the moment waiting with hope Can be hurtful. Because hope means waiting for something you don't yet have, something you may never have. And waiting, sucks. We could always give up, not wait, and not hope. Things would be easier, if much much more sad. Sometimes easy seems more important than happy. It's not. Sometimes giving up seems nobler than hanging on to a seemingly lost cause. It never is. I am trying to make the hopeful choice. And it, is hard. But will be worth it, is worth it even now.

David Bowie

Oh goodness... my blogging has really hit a block... I don't know what to say. But I guess I am back, I'll write more stuffs, I promise.