Another Day

Today was Sunday.
I arrived at church this morning and far from being ready to learn, I was already ready to go home. I was thinking of leaving after sacrament meeting because that is of course the most important part. But I decided to first say a prayer, I told myself and God that I was preparing for a mission, leaving church early is not exactly a mission prep thing to do, so in my prayer I asked that I would want to be in church today. By the time the first meeting was over, I was ready to stay through sunday school and then come home, and after sunday school I decided to stay for the whole block. And I am glad that I did.
I have been praying all the time recently, about pretty much everything and perhaps even too much. The other day in fact I was watching an episode of Buffy, yes, the Vampire Slayer, in a particular intense moment I found myself praying that it would all work out. Embarrassing, I know. It did not in fact work out as I wanted to but as the episode was prefilmed, I was not offended. I also pray about a lot of small things and big things that have been happening recently in my life. I have not always received an immediate solution to my problem but I have been able to maintain a feeling of peace and hope that has allowed me to remain happy even as I have struggled.
My mission papers are almost ready to be submitted, I only have the dental appointment left and it is scheduled for the 26th of may, then the waiting really begins. Sometimes I find myself scared, afraid that I wont be able to keep the schedule of a missionary or be able to break out of my shell enough to actually change the life of another human being for the better, but, in my heart, I know it can and will happen.
As of yet I do not know what exactly I will need physically for my mission, although I am fairly certain skirts will be involved. So if any of you lovely readers have anything cute to offer, I'm game.
I love you and will check in again soon.