Wreck of the day/ Paper Bag

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up.
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cuz love doesnt hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love



She don't run from the sun no more
She boxed her shadow and she won
Said I can see you laugh
Through these bottle caps
And this wire around my neck ain't
There for fun

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful
Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I cant see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Yeah they talk about her
She smiles like shes so tough
She says
"hey can you talk a little louder,
I don't think my heart is broken enough"

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where theres no more rain
And I can be me

Some days I wade in the indigo
Singing that song on the radio
I blame these puddles on the rain
You know I gotta keep these cheeks dry today
Gotta keep my cheating strategy
And baby I'm gonna have it made.

But someday we'll all be old
And I'll be so damn beautiful

Meanwhile I'll hide my head
Here in this paper bag
Cause if I can't see you
Then you can't see me
And it'll be okay
Fly little bee away
To where there's no more rain
And I can be me


It's funny how sometimes music can describe exactly how you feel, even when you wish it wouldn't. These songs did that for me and, I don't know if I can ever listen to anything else again. The second verse of Wreck of the Day described how I was feeling exactly this past week. It couldn't be love, I was falling apart, it hurt too much and I was ready to give up. I really was. And when that song came on I was near a breaking point and I did my best to not cry while driving down the road. Especially that verse and the two lines: Maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love, All my resistance will never be distance enough. I was so ready to just believe that it wasn't for me that I wasn't good enough, or pretty enough, or anything enough. But then the next song came on and it was so perfect and it made me stronger. I love the second verse in this one too, where she sings about the broken heart and how she pretends to be strong and okay when she isn't and it is so hard. And then it goes into the chorus saying that some day she is going to be so beautiful, everything will be okay, and she will be able to be herself. Last of all there is the part about the puddles and the cheeks, it's very descriptive of me and I admit it. So I know I will get over it, its hard but I can do it. Sometimes I believe my tears are a sign of weakness, but I know that they are just my reaction and they don't make me any weaker or stronger than anyone else.