Friday, April 16, 2010

Feeling Good


Aaaaaaah!!!!! I am feeling good. Epiphany today in English, like for real, I am feeling good. Whatever I have got I hope that it is catching and that everyone in the world will catch it because seriously, I am feeling so good, and it had better stick. I want to feel like this forever, In fact, I talked to God about it and he said I can. In response I was like, "you know, a lot of people have told me that and I never really listened," and he responded that I tend to do that, and together we laughed. I hope that that doesn't sound too blasphemous for the likes of my readers, but it doesn't seem blasphemous at all to me (Is that even spelled right?!?!?! I don't know...) But here's the deal, I feel good. I hold the world in my hands as a young, intelligent, beautiful, talented person and honestly, so do you. People like to "put me in my place" (or... us in our places?) and they seem to think that "my place" is down, but I have got it figured out. People put other people down because they secretly see the potential in others and it seriously pisses them off. And do you know why it makes them so angry? Well I think I do. It is because in seeing the potential in others they somehow fail to see the potential in themselves, and who wouldn't be angry to see a whole bunch of potential filled people when they do not share that potential? Who wouldn't? No one. SO somehow we all have to find it in ourselves. Sappy sappy sappy though that may sound it is true. Truer than molasses.


So like how in the world did I luck into feeling so fantastic today? I don't really know, but, it happened. It all started like... oh goodness... perhaps 50 minutes ago in English with my esteemed professor, Karin Anderson, the woman is AMAZING! but today, it was not even her teaching but student presentations instead, and one girl was talking about the runners high. This presentation did not cause me to immediately run thus causing my current "high" but instead caused me to think about the power my mind holds over my body, and I realized that I can do ANYTHING. This is not one of those times when the term anything is meant to mean a few select and approved things but instead a time when anything means anything. This realization made me want to excell and to try the impossible, in fact my imediate desire was to start jumping off really high things, (with appropriate safety measures of course!!!)both literally and in a more figurative making career choices sort of way. So I left my class with already high spirits when out of nowhere my ipod, on shuffle might i add, starts playing Feeling Good by Michael Buble, I proceeded to listen to it 5 additional times, beause, I AM feeling good. Aaaaaah! Like dang, if only I could feel like this forever, and, don't you worry, I plan to. This is not to say that I do not believe my eyes will fill with tears anytime soon, because honestly if anything was meant for tears it is my eyes, they have got it COVERED!!! But I just feel like whatever I am facing I will hop over, look back, and smile despite the turmoil and pain it may cause in the act, when all is said and done, I will come off conquerer.


Man how selfcentered can I get! But that was so not the intent, what i really think is that we all have potential hanging out inside of us, and not just a little but tons! Tons! And I just happened to be lucky enough to notice, so i feel it is my responsibility to say something about it and hopefully you all will notice too. I can only imagine what the world would be like if everyone felt the way that I do right now,things would be different, and it would be good. So lets do it! Seriously look inside yourself and see it, we have been given such wonderful, i don't know... ness! We should take full advantage.

4 comments:

Kristen said...

Haha. So this is me fueling the fire, so to speak? Well anyway, I am glad you are feeling so fantastic! Congratulations on your epiphany!
I have The Carpenter's singing "On the Top of the World" or whatever it's called in my head now. I'm glad that you feel that way. :)

A Few Tacos Shy... said...

There is nothing self-centered about believing in yourself.

I think people are afraid and fear makes them act out in anger. But really, each of us can do anything we set our minds to. Isn't college awesome? (when it isn't busy being a pain in the ass...)

Carrilyne said...

Amen sista!!!

Christensen's said...

I am so glad you are happy. You are beautiful and amazing and I hope you always realize that! On a side note... I may need a babysitter Friday afternoon. Do you have school? And will you tell that "A Few Tacos Shy" person not to use the "A" word in her comments. It really offended me :) he...he..