How to save a life

The lesson I am trying to learn is how to save a person who will not allow theirself to be saved. I try to save the world neglecting myself while my friends try to remind me to save me. It is hard for me to see the importance of my own life if I cannot stop a person I care about from taking his own. My friends say that now I need to worry about me more than anyone else, and I'm trying but I find it hard to care. The Fray's song has one line that says exactly what my friends do for me "And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life," the difference being of course that they did know, and they did save my life. Still as much as I want to do right by them after what they have done for me I cannot forget about the others it seems I need to save. I feel like I am responsible for the lives of those around me, when they make a stupid decision, it is my fault. Sometimes I look at my life and can see only the failure, the sin, and the imperfection. The people around me are trying to show me who I am to them but it can be so hard to see. It is hard to believe I am good when I screw up so often, when so much goes wrong. So instead of thinking about me and my insufficiencies i think about other people and how I can save them. It is hard though when they wont listen when they wont believe that I care, because I do, so much. Sometimes my caring is lost, when a person will not talk to me and though I know it is not my fault, I cannot help but believe that I should have been trying harder. Maybe if I had just chosen the right words they would have opened up. Now when he talks to me his voice is dead and toneless his words express how little he cares and it scares me. I think to myself, "what did I do wrong." I tell myself that I can do this, that I can help him, but in the back of my mind lies the thought "what happens if I can't?" And really I don't know. I am trying to better myself, to become happy so that everyone else can stop worrying. I will fix this, I have to.